Well , New month :) Not sure whats happening right now really. Don’t know why, but I feel much better now. More relaxed thanks God. Just hope you can keep it this way :) hmm Light festival on today, I’m still pretty confused about other things. Don’t know which friendships are real , which are fake. 

It’s over. 

It’s happening. It will soon happen . 

Dont smoke dont smoke dont smoke dont smoke Dont smoke dont smoke dont smoke dont smoke please nelson. Don’t become the person you said you wouldnt . I wont smoke i wont i wont i wont please no i wont no no nonononononononononononoon oi wont i wont I wont fucking smoke. Why do you make me feel like this. Even after you talk to me like that , you still go and hang out with him. Trust what is it . 

Hi. 

I guess it’s up to one decision. Memories are coming back , New connections and old ones are coming up.  All in this time. Just to make me turn out alright. What now jessica. 

It’s 12:20 No you can’t do this. Fuck off it’s my fault now? I’m not doing enough YOU FEEL LIKE YOU’RE MAKING ALL THE FUCKING EFFORT? OKAY THEN. It’s not my fault that you are spending so much time with him doing all those things couples do. I’m scared of what will happen to me. I’m not sure. And you don’t blame her , or him, you blame me for not doing crap to stop them from getting closer . What can I do. I don’t want to be selfish.

Hmm okay, god’s is in control of everything i’ll just let him work . Somehow . Just maybe things will go my way. So my ex said I was in a Lose-Lose situation, probably is. Hmm yea. thinking about it . Its true. 

So If we broke up you would date him. What now 

Mate’s birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAYY NICK C: lol jokes you cant see this , eh what im rather relaxed today even if he left us to see you. I unno lifes cool . Dam Monday tommorow .